Our new routine is that O's alarm clock goes off 10 minutes before she needs to get into the shower. We do this intentionally so that we can get 10 minutes of snuggle time in my bed before we need to get up.
As we snuggle in bed early this morning, O says the sweetest things to me.
As she says them, I alternate between....
saying to myself, "Remember this conversation so you can blog about it," and
saying to her, "Honey, please. Shhh. We only have a few more minutes to sleep."
And now, do I remember the conversation? No, I don't.
I only remember how I shushed her when I should have been enjoying her.
Enjoying her, dammit. It's going by so quickly. I should be enjoying her.
Why can't I remember that? I alternate between trying to remember so I can blog about it? and shushing her so I can sleep an extra 10 minutes? Are either of these good goals or intentions? No, they are not. Did I even acheive either of them anyway? No, I did not.
This is so pathetic I can't stand it.
Sigh.
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Yeah, but if you'd blogged about it, at least you would have been able to look back and remember the moment. That's my excuse for blogging, anyway.
I know what you mean, though. I just blogged about it a few days ago - how time just goes by too darn fast, and am I really enjoying my children as much as I should?
Heidi
Sleeping or blogging? If you only knew how many times I had to weigh this one. Have a nice day.
We all struggle with this, huh? It's so hard, striking the balance, isn't it? You'll give her lots of time tomorrow. Don't be so hard on yourself.
I have comment fog brain, can't think of anything even remotely good to say, but I really liked this. It reminded me a lot of Heidi's, which also touched me. We have to enjoy them. It shouldn't be as hard as it sometimes is, should it?
The best advice I ever got was that very thing: savor it. It does not last forever, this age where there are still snuggles to be had and sweet kisses for mommy. I try, and only sometimes do I succeed but I will keep trying because I know it will be gone in a flash.
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